i guess this is what it means when the Bible says, “love keeps no record of wrongs”
What do you do when the person who thought you were supposed to spend the rest of your life with, makes a mistake? For you, it was a betrayal. one you don’t know you can look back from. The memories of past relationships and healed scars come rushing in, and unlike before, you don’t stop it. You let the tears flow and the blood gushes out. You let the scars bleed and the demons scream, and you don’t bother to swim towards the shore anymore. You freefall to the depths of your despair, and no hands grab yours, because you didn’t bother to cry for help anymore.
But then, there is still this voice inside you, begging, “Please don’t give up just yet.” Is it delusion? Is it clinging to a false sense of hope? Is it just you begging for anyone to stay?
Isn’t it tiring to always be on your knees, pleading for them not to leave? Isn’t it exhausting having to be a choice, when all you wanted to be is never an option, but a sure thing.
God, it is draining. Just when you thought you finally got your answered prayers, life throws a curveball at you. Something beyond your control. Is this something you want to endure, is this something you want that haunts you?
Or is this something you choose to forgive? Over and over and over again. Even when it’s hard, even when it bleeds?
Is this what they meant when they said, “love keeps no record of wrongs?”
I’m slowly beginning to understand why marriage is meant to be a reflection between Christ and the church. It is impossibly illogical and just plain impossible. Forgiving betrayal, and choosing everyday not to remember it. To truly forgive and forget. When God said, “his mercies are new every morning,” this must be what He meant.
The logical part of me wants to scream to give it all up. You deserve better. But I was never one who made logical decisions. All my choices, the big ones at least, were always made with illogical leaps of faith.
And now, my journey with Christ is teaching me to reflect what it means for Christ-like love to “keep no record of wrongs,” and to show that love always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.
For now, I’m begging God to remind me, “His mercies are new every morning,” “Our sins He will remember no more,” and “Great is His faithfulness.”
“Love keeps no record of wrongs” is impossible by human standards.But I guess that’s what makes marriage such a great tool of sanctification and reflection. In it, you choose to love the way Christ loves, to serve the way Christ serves and to forgive the way Christ forgives. And in this manner, to reflect Christ and how He loves.
